THE Talk

Well, last night MB & I had THE TALK, the divorce talk.  I laid it all out, what I thought and what I felt.  And of course, afterwards, I felt immediately guilty.  Apprehension rose in my throat like bile.  WHAT HAVE I DONE?  I am naturally an anxious person; I’m in hyper-drive now.  Did I do the right thing?  Did I just sacrifice my marriage over my too-high expectations?  I had rose-colored dreams that I’d “mate for life” and things would be wonderful.  Now I’m bitter and nervous and so stressed I’m pulling out my hair.  But it’s coming from all angles, my family, my friends, and even some of his family.  I mean, I should follow their advice right….. I’m so scared…… I just wanna hide in the closet and cry.  I hope I’m doing the right thing.